It’s weird to think that these landscape images are almost 20 years old. I started to explore where I live and what changes were happening. Most of this image is rural fields, but what was interesting to me was the line of houses on the horizon. I think it’s time to revisit some of these places. I thought the work had run it’s course. Looking at them today, I realized these views have probably changed drastically.
Sun Prairie, WI looking southwest from Ratmann Road.
The question I have been mulling over is what is the goal. I didn’t think to document exact locations. I don’t think it’s realistic use the exact same location. GPS did exist, but that wasn’t part of my kit at the time.
Sun Prairie, WI, Egre Road.
These first few images were shot with 4×5 black and white film. Large format photography was something I was a little obsessed with. Photography does that. The gear can get in the way of the concept. I’m sure some practitioners are more focused on the what than the how. I like gear. I will probably come up with a post that addresses my approach to life. Having a closet full of photo gear is only part of the problem.
Sun Prairie, WI.
I was talking about gear. I found this image in my archives. I forgot about the 4×5 film magazine I had. It was a cool device. Practical? Not exactly, but look at the frame counter. I did myself a favor on this one, the file name says this was taken in 2009. The field in the foreground has definitely changed. A high school and athletic fields occupy the space.
Middleton, 2012. This appears to be facing south towards Middleton, WI, near the Pheasant Branch Conservancy.
Commitment is a daunting concept. I have given myself permission to break some long term but loosely maintained commitments. This is mostly in regards to projects and related materials. During my 44 years on this earth, I have had many interests. I can’t point to any one of them and say “That’s what I am about.” I collect materials and brainstorm. I write down ideas and start things. This iteration of my web presence is a great example. I’m telling myself that I need to put some content out into the world and revisit what it means to be a creator.
In the context of our current time, there’s definitely a formula and there are right and wrong ways to put your work out into the world. An idea can go viral and snowball into a life of its own. I am intentionally not putting my efforts into social media platforms. The current landscape for content creation is a little alien to me. I understand what could be involved. I see people making it work. I don’t see myself as a person that needs to be a part of the attention economy. I’m probably sealing my fate. Maybe next year I will be producing stunts and asking you to like and subscribe. I doubt it, that sounds like a lot of work.
Anatomy of a weekend – Photo collage, silver gelatin print 2010?
I decided to include the image above because it was the start of something. In grad school, I explored my identity, because that seemed to be the thing to do. I imitated what I saw as a contemporary style of expression. It felt self indulgent, and it is. A lot of creative endeavors start with things one enjoys. I had been mining the idea of living a suburban middle class existence. I had some inspirations, but my attempts to adopt a style felt a little anemic. I didn’t know what I was trying to say, and I don’t think I had enough experiences to solidify my identity and express my ideas.
The photo collage is something I made after grad school. It was an exploration of a visual language. It was also an experiment. I like to experiment. Experimentation is a big part of who I am. It’s basically my hobby. The image is a print from a negative that was a photo of a collage of prints that I arranged. I photographed these objects, printed them in the darkroom and them arranged the printed objects into a pattern which I photographed again. I have a few versions of this image. I solarized this print and liked the result. At the time, I felt like the process making the image was important. I was spending a lot of time editing images in Photoshop at my day job, so I wanted to step away from digital process.
Back to commitment. I submitted this image as a proposal for an exhibit at a local gallery. My proposal was chosen and a date was set. If I remember correctly, they planned out 3 years of exhibits. My date was a couple years out. I had a reason to continue the project. I had time to make the work. At the time, my wife and I were parents to 3 grade school aged kids and a new baby. Making a living was obviously a priority. So that’s what happened. I made a noble attempt at using my photographic knowledge to make money. I freelanced, taught workshops and pulled together enough work to feel like I could truly make a living being creative. I was miserable for a multitude of reasons.
As I got closer to my exhibition opening, I took a corporate job. Insurance. It as certainly not the direction I was trying to go, but 12 years later, I’m still engaged in the industry. It’s not a labor of love, but stability is a really magical thing. As I got started in my career as a insurance professional, the deadline crept closer. I wasn’t going to be able to make the work I had planned on doing in the darkroom. My aversion to spending my after hours in Photoshop after spending my day in Photoshop was gone. Instead I was spending my day calling clients, answering emails and attending meetings. So the work evolved, because my life had evolved. I had committed to this exhibit and the opening day was rapidly approaching. I spent hours playing with compositions and came up with some images that tied up a lot of loose ends.
Commitment is hard. Below is the final series of images for the series call “Anatomy of a Weekend”. They saw the light of day in 2013 at the James Watrous Gallery in Madison, WI. This is the last time I exhibited a creative project in a gallery setting. Other commitments became a priority. Some of the commitments have grown up to be amazing people who have their own work and commitments. That feels like a sappy way to end this post, but I’m ok with that.
Today’s post is my way of committing to something new and giving myself space to let go of old commitments. It’s a blog post in the age of influencers and social media. Baby steps.
